11.8.24

womp womp womp womp... that has been my mind for maybe the past month. idk why, but this school year, its been hard for me to want to do work and enjoy learning as i did last year.. and i don't know what's causing it. not once have i ever opened roblox while in class but now all the sudden im playing DTI and it doesn't make me feel good...
i keep hearing about teachers working against people i know (and people i don't know), and it makes me kinda sad. as if teachers are trying to harm their students education rather than support it.. i mean deliberately not sharing information and not telling people important details.. its really crazy.anyway though, at least its moving quickly. but... recently, i haven't been feeling so well. really, ive been feeling sick.. it started with some sort of stomach issue, then a sinus infection, and now, i haven't been able to walk in a straight line, and i feel like fainting. its been like this for the last couple days where if i move my head too much while sitting, ill rock back bcs i loose all feeling in my head and go numb >.< ... today, it was worse, and my advisor said if my mom didn't get me a doctors appointment, that they'd have to take me to the doctor or call an ambulance. which is embarassing,, ive always been shy about talking about my health problems, because i always feel like im lying. its gotten to the point where even using a kardiamobile, im still second guessing myself abt my own heart rate, etc... so i hope my faint problem goes away soon. besides that... i just want christmas break to come T_T