5.23.2026

i graduated!!
yep mr. oceanfront is a chud now... well i did it. it has been a really emotional day for me, but i finally got through it. unfourtunately i now have to be in the Torture Labyrinth of my house for another four months before i move into college
to be honest, its really hard for me to be happy now. so let me get through the sad stuff first before i tell you about the rest: basically, my mom is a nut (i deadass think she has some sort of undiagnosed mental illness) and lowkey made my whole day pretty awful. to put everything into a nutshell (haha get it) i had my graduation lunch/dinner by myself because she didn't want to sit with me bcs she doesn't eat sushi. so her, and the rest of my family that was there, all sat at a pub! so... yeah that's my family. you would've thought that after 4 years they'd get a grip but i digress. so... honestly, now, im just sad. because nobody in my family really cared to congratulate me, they just made sure to perform it with gifts and the like.
arguably worse than that though 😭 i have a very small graduating class, so each one of us's names are actually read outloud with a sentence or two about us/our character. well... guess who for some reason was NOT mentioned! yeah so i literally just got completely skipped which i can't really fathom. afterwards they also said all of our college's mascots and um.... mine was literally skipped too. like holy fuck. i geniunely didn't know what to say. im still pretty upset about that because ive been going to this school for 4 years and they jus forgot about me like... Okay😂😂🤐

sooo anyway...#yep! let me tell you guys some other things. 1. we don't have graduations gowns or caps i deadass just dress like im going to church. 2. it was literally raining sideways and our graduation was OUTSIDE😊! so i am very wet and cold! anyway.. im really trying to enjoy graduation (like seeing all my friends and stuff) but icl the day was just pretty rough. i was really happy to see my best friend though who moved south last year for school and i hadn't seen her since... but she was THERE!! and we ate together with some very good sushi at my favorite restaurant

it was very bittersweet day. because, i had a lot of good teachers, and a lot of really awful teachers. i felt like a lot of my achievements weren't recognized, and i got disrespected pretty often at my school. but im so happy to be away from it now, and i just really hope i have a better education in college. here's a photo of me, we don't have caps or anything which sucks but oh well girl like!
so now, what are my next plans?

move to college in 4 months

get a job

get my driver's license

code a LOT (and hopefully go to 🇦🇺)

finish my unfinished trades, draw again, play genshin & get lohen, play rdr2, etc. etc. etc.

i wont be able to truly be myself for awhile until i move out, and its going to come with a lot of hardship. i am really, really trying my best now, and i just kind of have to have hope... i think maybe being able to drive could fix that a bit lowkey. anyway. im very excited its summer, i should have a good ammount of time to code more! thanks everyone for reading and also thank you for like 140k views wtf that's crazy. anyway yesss bye!